Hmmmm
I have officially decided that when I actually just relax about God everything works out for the best. Lately I've been kinda struggling about what I'm suppose to do with my life and where God wants me. It's all been rather exhausting and it's been leaving me with a total sense of helplessness. Then I go to SHOC and I'm kinda nervous about it since Michael is taking a break and I'm not sure how things are going to flow without him, and I'm starting to stress and then my keyboard keeps turning itself off and I'm getting really irritated and I'm about to like seriously kill either someone or myself and God hits me. Obviously He didn't actually smack me or anything but He started talking to me about things when I honestly wasn't even thinking about Him. This leads to me ministering to two different people and both of them were really encouraged by what I had to say and I also got a friendship renewed from it. It's totally amazing how God works like that. It's like when I'm not trying to focus on Him and I'm not like making a big deal about being spiritual, He totally works through me. I find that kind of ironic but hey that's ok. Tonight was really good too because I was actually in a place where I could recieve what Rick was talking about. And I know I've lost some of my passion for God so it was awesome to like renew myself with Him. It's so easy as humans to get caught up in the world, even the Christian world, and lose sight of why we're really here. Like losing sight of our calling or something like that. God's been really working on me about that, and I'm seriously gonna try to not let circumstances get in the way of living my life for God. So yeah tonight was really good and I got into worship right away and it was just awesome. I've found though that when I'm really into it and I'm sitting down at my keyboard my leg starts shaking. Like seriously you'd think I was having some sort of seizure or something I'm so sure. Oh well I guess God doesn't really care what you look like physically when you're worshiping. I'm sure your heart looks beautiful even if your leg is having a seizure. So I will end on that happy note and leave everyone with the realization that yes Jaime is a complete and total freak!